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just had 3 shots of whiskey after my mom went to bed then snuck out the back door for a cigarette.
i'm 17 again & i miss high school.

it snowed today and my friends drank and smoked without me because my car would not cooperate in this weather.
now the keyboard is too far away for me to type so goodnight i guess.

just a good fucking song

i am easy to ignore

sometimes song lyrics are so appropriate, you know?
especially when the song comes on at the exact right time and it's just so fucking serendipitous it makes you want to cry.



sometimes shit gets in the way and there's nothing you can do about it but wait.

murry chrssmus

busy spending shitloads of money on clothes right now.
bff's birthday/new years party next weekend, new tattoo after i get back to school.

this shit means something.

Our almost-instinct almost true:
What will survive of us is love.




(free to be pretentious)

the essential

RIP

this makes me really sad.



i know it's far from her (or anyone's) best movie, but everyone should watch uptown girls in memoriam.

360

wow.

i don't even care that it's incredibly ridiculously played out,
not to mention it was my favorite song when i was 14,
this is a good motherfucking song.



whatever, you know it's fucking timeless.

yeah, it was a pretty good night.

oh just shut up already.

And I want to tell her,
"Your love isn't lost,"
say "my heart is still crossed!"
scream, "hey, you're so wonderful!
What a dream in the dark
- about working so hard,
about glowing, so stoned,
trying not to turn off,
trying not to believe in that lie
all on your own."

6 days till my 19th birthday
4 days/4 finals till winter break & i get to go home;
i don't know who (which) is waiting for me there, but we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.

for now...
music.

america can't say no

indulge me for just a moment.
i'm aware that emo is over and i apologize for my behavior.
(how many times have i said that?)
i don't mean to be a stereotype and i'm not trying to be debbie downer.

so i'm sorry.
but you guys.
this is bad.

legitimately awful things are going on right now.
and i feel that it is appropriate to feel this way.
so please just humor me.



i will be so grateful when this week is over.



but this all keeps going no matter what & no matter who and it will be okay.